Today, decided to let it moves again. Got no other reasons, just wish to. Time flies, peoples changed. Sometimes feeling is just so complicated. Recently memories keep passing by. What to do when all bad memories just dissapear, and you realise that warms one simply just left deep in your heart.. I dont know. Had already gone through so far, alone. I have families who really cares on me. What I can do is just pretend to be very happy in front of them. It is just so hard to find someone to talk with. Friends? Real and sincere one, how many do i have? Knew that i can get through all these shit only by myself, again. I want to be brave. I want to be good. but feeling just beat me up so damn easy. Maybe i just dont deserved to have it. Everything, i just dont deserved. Right? :(