for the past one year

many things had changed

my life, my behavior, my relationship, 

always tried to be positive

and things went wrong badly

i just got tired of everything

what really meant most to me

aint important anymore

maybe i am different and this is my life

there are no sincere relationship

same thing goes to friendship

people just take you for granted,

treat you as a clown, making joke on your imperfection,

and they will never care your feeling either

so just learn and get used to it

how i wish to have one that understand me well

will not hesitate to lift me up anytime 

and i knew these kind of people wont appear in my life

coincidence or not, maybe this is just the right timing

received a treatment plan from government hospital

a life changing process - Orthognathic surgery

its a surgery to correct the conditions of the jaw and face related to structure problems

or people used to call it 'Korean plastic surgery'

a 4 stages treatment plan

1 - Teeth Extraction (6pcs)

2 - Orthodontic Braces (12 Months+)

3 - Orthognathic surgery

4 - Orthodontic Braces (6 Months)

was told that after the treatment plan

i will be totally a different person

good or bad, who knows..

but one thing for sure is that my life is gonna be damn sux during the period of treatment

both physically and mentally

we dont get things for free, you pay for what you get right?

First stage completed

6pcs tooth gone within two rounds of extraction, 3pcs each 

very efficient huh? nurse said i am too brave, will just take it as a compliment haha

kinda tortured by the second round of extraction

serious bleeding, headache and slight fever as well 

an advice from me, please brush and take good care of your teeth 

human being definitely not gonna love the extraction :D

people would always think that is it really worth to suffer?

for me, i got nothing else to lose

i just want a better me